Not really day one YET, but today's the day I go to see the doctor to get some help in quitting once and for all.
I've smoked 'properly' for 20 years, and that in itself scares the hell out of me, and after a few attempts to pack it in, this time I've had enough. In the past I've tried cold turkey, Zyban (but had the most awful time on it - had massive panic attacks and was truly suicidal. I was plagued with feelings of utter worthlessness and despair, so needless to say I didn't stay on it long), nicotine gum (tasted so horrible I needed a fag to get rid of the taste) and patches and even hypnotherapy (I just fell asleep...). The longest I quit was 3 weeks.
Anyway, my son hates me smoking, my boyfriend despises it and with every passing day I'm getting more and more disgusted with it myself. The health thing is also preying on my mind more and more. There's a history of cancer on my mother's side of the family, and my father had a major stroke at 58 (not that he smoked). So the odds aren't really in my favour!
My friend's just successfully quit using Champix so I'm going to see if the doctor will prescribe that. The stupid thing is that when I'm at my boyfriend's house, I have no desire to smoke at all. The odd 'oooh, ciggy' thought will pop into my head but it quickly goes again. I even went away with him for 3 days and survived on just one cigarette. I get no strong cravings, nothing. And when I come back to my house, the stink of stale smoke revolts me. Yet the minute I'm on my own I'm off again. As handcuffing myself to him for a week or so isn't an option, I'm going to have to try another route!
So I just wanted to say hello before the *real* fun begins :eek: