Well I had my first "Smoking Dream" of this quit yesterday afternoon while I was taking a nap.
In the dream I was laying in bed (What's funny is it wasn't my "current" bed, but a bed I had about 15 years ago) I had 2 packs of Marlboro Reds sitting on the headboard and I was just waking up.
Out of the smoker's instinct I reached up and grabbed a cigarette and lit it up. I was still "groggy" in my dream so I just lit the think and took a couple of drags off of the thing. After I "started to wake up" in the dream I realized I was smoking, got pissed off at myself and then started to look around and realized that something wasn't right, I was laying in a bed I hadn't had for 15 years, that this must be a dream. Well here is where I get a bit mad at myself. Since I had realized I was in a dream, I thought it couldn't hurt, so I decided to have a couple of more drags off the cigarette. I then got pissed at myself again for smoking and told myself to wake up!
Well I "woke up" again, however I knew I was still in the dream because I was laying in the my bed of 15 years ago still. Except this time I only had the lighter and the ashtray with no cigarettes. Before I could do anything more with this, I ended up waking up in real life (To actual reality this time).
I have been stewing with anger all day over this, I still am pissed at myself for deciding to go ahead and smoke for a couple of more drags within the dream. I keep taking it as a setback in my quit. I have tried like hell to do as Allen Carr suggests and think of myself as a "non-smoker" however I keep arguing to myself that my dream contradicts that fact and I have a long way to go mentally yet before I can beat this thing.
I realize I am probably just being too hard on myself, I mean afterall, I have had dreams that I could fly like Superman before, but when I woke up did I actually think I could fly? No, I realized it was just a dream. I am trying to put this into perspective that it is the nicotine monster inside of me trying to trick me into smoking again and to persevere. Regardless, it made the rest of my evening a real pain in the butt, because all I did was think about smoking. I ended up eating half a package of Oreo Cookies and a bunch of Sunflower Seeds to get me through the night. This is another thing Allen Carr does not want people to do, substitute food for smoking.
Basically I had a bad day with my quit I guess I know these will happen and I just need to stay strong.