Hiya everyone. I really dunno what Im doing in here, or why I'm bothered. (probably not the best insight to start with , but honest)
I have tried to give up smoking so many times I mean , many , many times. In the past I have managed up to 22 days, and then caved in ... which kinder makes me feel like I havn't actually achieved something this time round, until I get past that mark . It's like a knowledge that I've packed in before when i've got this far , why won't it happen again . I almost speak like it's something completely outa my control . I have been a continuos smoker of both tobacco and cannabis for the past 13 years , and really need to stop . My life seems to be passing me by , I find myself getting outa breath doing very light excersise, and am generally unhappy all round. ( more so today without a smoke )
Right now , reading sites on lung cancer, and other joys brought from smoking , don't seem to be having the desired effect. My ignorances pleads to rule my mind, and the only feelings Im having as an effect of reading these grotesque stories are more along the lines of ... 'if this how giving up feels , Id rather suffer a slow painful death ' Again , not how I really feel , and it shames me to actually come out with it .
All encouragement would be greatly appreciated . Hopefully this time , I will do it . *crying in misery*
BÃ©nite . xxx