HiI have been diagnosed with OCD since I was 15 now I'm nearly 22 and my life is hell
My OCD is still in its worst form I dropped out of high school. In the last few months I had many issues caused my OCD to reach its peak I don't leave home for months and honestly I don't know how to deal with my disorder anymore
My words can't describe how awful is my situation and they re not even close
I have already tried antidepressants in fact I tried every SSRI available in those 7 years after my diagnosis. I'm Egyptian and therapy here relies fully on antidepressants and talk therapy that doesn't really help much
Even my general health is awful I have to pull out nearly half of my all teeth because i stopped brushing them due to my depression that is associated with my severe OCD
Now I'm stuck the third of my whole age is wasted because of this disorder I don't really know what to do and I don't think this is gonna end any soon
Did anyone have similar experience with severe OCD like me?
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i am having similar issues but a lot older. Im really trying it all. There is a brain surgery some people get that helps, but you have to have years of ERP therapy and documented taking of medication nand seeing therapists before you can access it. IV believe it is at Brown university. Im fed upt too
I know you said where you are a lot of the therapy is talk therapy. I would try to find someone who has an understanding of OCD even registered with IOCD. They can help you with guidance through ERP. I know ERP is regarded as one of the best therapies for OCD. I notice that when I stop my erp that ocd get louder. But the more I practice, the smoother things become.
Are you comfortable with sharing more details about your OCD? Are you obsessed with symmetry, rituals to avert harm to others, checking, ruminating, etc. ? This may help others and myself on this forum to better tailor our answers to your specific situation. Often, OCD "attacks" people in a narrow domain and leaves all the others untouched, although it may lead to a depressive state that's more generalized.
Hello OCD Turtle. I have been struggling with pure O since I was 12 years old and I was not directly diagnosed. I suffered from panick attacks, severe OCD attacks to the point of insanity. I got addicted to benzos till the age of 30 when on the point of either dying from my addiction or seeking medical advice, I opted for the latter. It was not my fault though as no member of my family had ever heard of ocd. I suffered hell to recover from my addiction while receiving my new treatmenr which consists of zoloft, venlax and depakine. The only difference with you is that pure O did not affect my education as I always ranked first in my class, but I cannot deny that despite that, I hated school because I felt alien to others. I had extreme fear and panic going to school maybe due to my dad's severe upbringing as well. At home was hell and school as well but I opted for home of course. I am now 43 and have finished my PhD despite many obstacles I have faced in my life like the loss of my mum from cancer when I was 22 and lately the loss of my second mum my aunt. However, despite the ocd attacks where your brain seems to be focused on only one haunting idea, a silly one, but scary too, I have recently obtained my PhD and published articles online too. Cam I tell you that I am happy? No. Though I am beautiful and smart, I could never get married though I got engaged for a while. The thought itself scares me to death. I could not feel normal like other people. I could not have children of my own. I feel lonely and sometimes find difficulty getting out of bed especially job opportunities are scarce now in Lebanon. Sometimes I cry my soul out not just my eyes. I tell myself that I cannot go out like others or enjoy myself like others do since medication alone is not sufficient to destroy OCD. I prefer solitude and find trouble keeping a job though I taught at several universities. OCD makes it hard to handle pressure so seeking work as a freelancer is the best. I am oversensitive and that is OCD's favorite ally as your life literally turns to hell. Despite everything and in the darkest of moments, I have not given up. I am broke and cannot find a job as all online jobs are fake. I worry about tomorrow as I fear dying one day lonely and alone with no one to care about me. My pure O which I have partially inherited from my grandpa and partially developed due to my dad's narcissistic character, destroyed my life and deprived me of the glow of happiness in my eyes. I feel dead from inside and act to my family that everything is fine, but sometimes I cannot even bear looking at my dad's face and my brother's as I hold them responsible for my worsened OCD. Sorry for the long message, but keep having faith. Despite everything, I am a doctor now and intend to keep writing and publishing. Maybe one day, I would become wealthy though not totally healthy but believe me wealth sometimes improves to some extent health as stress is the main factor behind any OCD.
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