Scared to death!!

[Closedwalls]

I was so happy just on Tuesday and now I feel like I'm back at square one....maybe even worse than that. My subject matter has morphed into much worse today. I not only notice random things and sounds...but now I compulsively memory hoard them. Like I could be passing by my couch or hear the buzzing of the fridge or see an image on TV and my will decide to reminder that forever, keeping it in consciousness forever...it bounces from one thing to the next in quick succession. It's like the automatic motor function that let's go of unimportant thoughts is broken. Is this a fear of fear or something else? I want to break this down and work on it. Sorry to keep posting everyone but this group is as close to "therapy" as I'm getting.

[WilliamG]

A couple things help me with things that are similar to this: 1) I remind myself that “this too shall pass.” I tend to catastrophize and think I’m stuck in a thought and it will never go away, but thoughts do pass eventually. I just have to sit with the discomfort and practice acceptance, and in time it passes. 2) I practice the “catch and release” method that I’ve developed with meditation and mindfulness. Thoughts always surface in my mind, and if I practice observing them and then letting them go (focusing on my breath or my environment, etc), I don’t automatically attach to them. (If I can’t let it go, I sit with it.)

For me, OCD is like an annoying fly buzzing on a window: it distracts me from the view. I have to learn to tune out “the fly,” if that makes sense. I’ve never been able to make the fly go away entirely, but some days I don’t focus on it as much.

[Mcfly64]

Hi. Are you seeing a therapist?