hey guys :)

[Pepper_luvr]

Hey um this is the first time I’ve ever tried something like this. Im dealing with severe undiagnosed ocd. I’ve known I’ve had ocd since I was a kid and it’s only gotten worse as I’ve gotten older. I feel profound loneliness, as I’ve never met someone who understands why I am the way that I am. I’ve never tried medication, as I was on adderall for 11 years of my life, which basically made me into a robot, and I’m scared to ever go back to medication for anything. I don’t know how to verbalize my feelings a lot of the time but I could really use someone to talk to who’s going through what I am.

[SCC1]

Welcome Pepper_luvr! You will find this community very supportive and caring. We have all gone through similar/the same experiences with OCD. Even though you have trouble expressing your emotions, know there are people here who feel that way too; you are in the right place, so ask anything you would like and we will try to help.

Have you ever been to a Dr/therapist who practices OCD treatment? If not, it would be a good idea to talk to one. They can also advise you what to do about meds in case that is what you may need to help with your symptoms. Tell them how you feel about taking medication; they understand and most-likely have dealt with others who feel the same way as you. xx

[TomFed]

One word for you - get help. Online OCD forums is a good start, but try to look for ERP therapist online or around where you live. This most likely will be a game changer, you need a proper assessment and diagnosis in order to move on with your healing journey. Trust me, I've been trying to self heal OCD since I consciously understood I had it when I was around 15-16 till I finally gave up and reached out for help a couple of years ago when I was 33. Some self healing worked, some didn't, but the breakthrough started to happen only when I reached out for help in the constructive way. OCD is a very treatable condition and I wish I had guts and/or wisdom to seek help two decades ago, probably would have saved myself from at least some trouble along the way. If you wanna talk, feel free to pm.

[BrunoWayne]

I’m sorry you feel profound loneliness but unfortunately that is something I can relate to. That’s why it’s a good thing we have resources like this message board . I joined several days ago and it’s helped alot. You aren’t alone, I’ve felt the same way about my OCD but even just reading posts on this community helps me feel more connected. I’m always here to talk. I share your attitude towards medication- and adderall actually made my OCD WORSE. Much worse. I share your medication hesitant attitude, but there really are medicines that work it just takes trial and error to find one. Nothing against medicine because it helps so many people- but adderall is overprescribed in America (where I live) especially to children and most people don’t realize it is a type of methamphetamine. Adderall is a stimulant and in general stimulants haven’t helped my OCD personally.