Hi guys!

[AlexisKY]

Hi guys, just like clockwork, I’m back again.

Apparently my OCD likes to come and go, whenever it pleases.

*trigger warning for drug use*

This time, it’s on drug use.

I was in the hospital last week, and was given quite a few doses of morphine for chest pain I was having (I have extensive health issues) and before that, maybe once-twice a week, I was taking my muscle relaxers I had, because I had screwed up my back a few weeks back. I wasn’t taking them everyday (I did for maybe the first few days of the back pain) then stopped, and would sporadically take them as needed.

Now of course, after this hospital visit, my OCD was triggered (not exactly sure what did it) maybe being in that environment. But my OCD is trying to latch on, and make me believe I’m “addicted” to drugs, or that I “need” them, or even need to try harsh drugs (I saw a post on Facebook about a recovering heroin user, so imagine how that did it for me) (which is probably what triggered my OCD)

And since then, my brain has been flooded with awful thoughts on drugs, and it’s just not a good time.

Deep down I *know* I’m not addicted, I haven’t taken anything since the hospital (besides the day after for chest pain still) but I don’t take pain medicine everyday, and have never developed an issue like that in my life.

TLDR; anyone experience certain triggers, and then start obsessing over these intrusive thoughts? I guess I just need encouragement to get through this, because i know I would never be that type of person ever, and it’s scaring me.

[nkotbjoeymc]

Sorry to hear about this.

[AlexisKY in reply to nkotbjoeymc]

It’s definitely hard, my OCD just obsesses over intrusive thoughts

[nkotbjoeymc in reply to AlexisKY]

I keep forgetting what intrusive thought’s are but I think I have them?

[AlexisKY in reply to nkotbjoeymc]

They’re basically unwanted/bad thoughts that you don’t want to have, (in my case being addicted to drugs) everyone gets them, but unfortunately those with OCD (like myself) obsess over them

[nkotbjoeymc in reply to AlexisKY]

Mine come from many different thing’s but not drug’s.

[AlexisKY in reply to nkotbjoeymc]

It’s not the same for everyone… I have intrusive thoughts over many different things all the time… but this time my OCD is obsessing over something else.

[azaleacrimson]

Definitely sounds like OCD, sorry to hear that it's resurfacing so bad. ☹️

I know it's so hard to ignore even when you're intellectually aware there's nothing to worry about. But you're already very aware it's just obsession, so it's just a matter of trying really hard to not entertain the worries with a fearful response and it should improve. Much easier said than done, though, I know.

Still, you can do this!! You are stronger than OCD!

[trollinthedungeon]

My advice is to see a mental health professional, someone certified/experienced in OCD treatment. Your thoughts sound very similar to mine, though I obsess over different things. I’m learning slowly to not give these unwanted thoughts and images value (very slowly and painfully might I add). There are also a lot of ocd self help books you might try if you aren’t ready for therapy.

[brig1120]

ocd sometimes give people irrational worries. It attaches to things people worry about. It is understandable that it would attach to worries/ fears of addiction. Know that it is obsessive worry

[propjock]

It’s harder when there’s an element of truth to the worry. It’s the intensity and urgency that is out of proportion that makes it so hard to shake, at least for me. Hard road.