I started slipping again so I left civilization for a while.

[ObsessionOverlord]

Since my last post it's been a bit of a roller coaster. Not to far down, and not to far up ~ but a wobbly neutral and still somehow doing OK. I started to use my hacking abilities to seek revenge on a personal vendetta against a guy who abused a women.... For some reason I feel like I'm the one who needs to punish him because the police wont do it and neither will the victim. Anyways.... I've been sucked into obsessing about this personal vendetta against this guy and it had me so sucked in I realized I might loose my career if I get caught doing stupid computer things again....

As I felt myself slipping back into unhealthy obsession I packed up all my stuff and headed out into the forest to "loose my mind and find my soul" in the words of John Muir... With a lot of time to think about my trials and tribulations I came back out of the bush a little more humble and a lot less angry, more accepting and willing to try and move past my indifference. While I was on a grueling 2km portage I couldn't help but think that none of what I am enduring out in the backcountry is as hard as going through OCD. If I can get through OCD etc, I can get through anything in the damn world.

You are all very strong people even though you may feel at your lowest point. You have the ability to come out the other side of anything you put your mind too.

[BrmhmR]

The area in the picture looks like a great place to be. I agree with you a lot on what you said towards the end. We are battling ourselves internally that anything on the outside doesn't seem as big of an obstacle. We are becoming more and more mentally resilient even if we don't realise it. A difficult path for us all but the effort made from walking through it will reward us with a greater place.

[ObsessionOverlord in reply to BrmhmR]

I'm happy you understand my narrative !

[Cherryfizz34 in reply to ObsessionOverlord]

I’m like the opposite, nothing internal bothers me but external everything bothers me. Do you know any books on hacking? I get hacked a lot and would like to educate myself on it

[lml885]

Where do you go to get away from civilization? Looks nice.

Im trying to find a way to buy or cheap place out in the woods somewhere to have a refuge like that.

[ObsessionOverlord in reply to lml885]

Usually Algonquin park for me ...I live pretty close.