A year ago, I experimented with magic mushrooms, which was a really stupid thing to do. Since I take medication for my ocd, the effects waited a lot longer to kick in, which made me believe I didn't eat enough so I started to take some more and I ended up having a really bad trip. During that, I had an intense feeling of depersonalization, which was really scary and actually pretty traumatising. Since that night, every couple of weeks, I have a brief moment of depersonalization. Sometimes it's more often, sometimes less, but it's regular. When it happens, I can usually shake it off by talking to someone about it, or by doing some chores, but every time it's really scary. I've done some research and I read that existential ocd exists. However, it's not happening on a daily basis. Can it be the answer for it then? Additionally, around the time of the trip, I had to work on this big project about Sartre's existentialism, which really didn't do any good.
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Can existential ocd be the cause for brief moments of depersonalization?
Thank you ElineEline for posting.I have to say I had been tempted to try magic mushrooms as there is emerging evidence for them in treating entrenched forms of depression particularly. However, the research has been in controlled environments and I would worry about doing it ‘as an amateur’, I’d worry about lasting negative consequences. For me with a long term history of anxiety/depression/ocd I’m keeping it as a last resort option for now. Also I’ve been pretty good for a while now.
Of course existential OCD exists. My understanding is it’s a form of mental rumination that like all rumination is a mechanism the brain uses to try to escape uncertainty and fear. We will never be able to ‘think’ our way to safety and fear and we can’t use thought processes to deliver uncertainty.
I try to become mindful of the recurrent thoughts and questions but simultaneously try not to engage with them, ie a form of ERP applied to thoughts.
Not easy though. Good luck
I think depersonalisation is who we really are the Soul as the rider of the horse (the body)! Are you living life from the Soul perspective or the body perspective - OCD can only be on the body and the mind of the body.
ElineEline. During my college days, when I studied existentialism by reading Sartre, Simone De Beauvoir, and Soren Kierkegaard, I found Sartre was the most depressing, (The play, "No Exit," is such an example.) I came to prefer Kierkegaard and the way he combined existentialism with theology. Maybe he might have some answers for you concerning your "intense feeling of depersonalization" that you got after focusing on Sartre