Is this an intrusive thought?

[Mxndixne]

IS THIS OCD?

Long story short, I’ve always had forms of OCD and recently developed harm ocd. It’s by far the most disturbing form. I have counseling and have a session this week but just wanted to hear from others with this horrible disease.

I was in my kitchen and saw a large fork thought about it hurting someone, I immediately looked away and then looked back almost curious as if the fork would be the right distance to be eye width apart to hurt someone. Now my brain is trying to rationalize that it’s just ocd and that it’s not something I actually want to do but why would I have looked back a second time to look at the width if I didn’t want to hurt someone?

Is this just another form of an intrusive thought?

[bulldog71]

I have harm OCD. It is very disturbing. You are not alone. Work with your therapist. Hopefully, find the right meds that will help you. God bless you on your journey.

[ISTY]

Yes it is the ocd 100% it is egodystonic making you have thoughts that are opposing to your values so you doubt and it causes distress.. ERP can help do the work and it will get better you already have the understanding that it’s not your own thoughts keep going .. sending love

[Jamie082678]

I feel like this is reassurance seeking so I don’t want to say too much but if you think it’s OCD it’s the OCD. It will find ways to trick you.