An anxious thought that kind of circles my mind on and off when I feel more vulnerable to intrusive thoughts. I know it's a road and recovery is not quick nor easy, but ive always suffered from thinking im not doing or acting my best for my mental health. But after finding out OCD is what drives those thoughts it is a little easier to cope. Before self compassion became a bigger part of me I forced recovery and hated that I had anxiety. If I had an anxious thought I told myself that I couldnt act on a decision unless I was feeling 100% calm and neutral. I know very unhealthy thinking but Ive come along way since then but still get a little caught up in those thoughts that im not trying hard enough.
Also if i could get some recommendations on OCD recovery books/ones that talk about intrusive thoughts. Or ones that have a good impact on the pure O spectrum that would be very helpful. Thanks everyone and hope you all are feeling at ease today!