I'll be honest. When people used to tell me as a kid to focus on the present moment and stop worrying about the future, I felt frustrated. Back then, I didn't know why it was so hard for me to ground myself in the present, and being told to do that felt frustrating and sometimes impossible. How can I focus what's going on right now until I fix this bad thought? I knew something about me was different, but I didn't think much of it until my OCD diagnosis. I wonder how many other kids with OCD felt the same way, back then in elementary school. Did other kids go to their mothers and say, "I had a thought..." Did their mothers looking at them knowingly, ready to give reassurance? Did other kids have trouble falling asleep because they need to wash their hands just one more time? As I grew older, I began to understand myself better. I finally had answers to why I felt like my brain was different from other peoples' brains. I understood that the reason I worry about "silly" things that my friends don't think twice about -- or sometimes even chuckle at -- is because I have an "OCD" brain, and it works a little different than other brains.
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I used to think of "good days" as days where I don't have OCD thoughts. But I've come to learn that I can have good days where those thoughts are present. Because the truth is that I live with OCD. It is a part of my life, and I can't make it go away by thinking really hard about it. It takes a lot of work but I'm learning to have good days despite intrusive thoughts. I'm trying to ground myself in the present moment, because I'm tired of losing time to OCD. I refuse to let it confine me to the past or make me worry about the future.
OCD and memory
Confused and hopeless because of these thoughts
Intrusive thoughts? 
Anybody else with aggressive intrusive thoughts?
Sexual OCD thoughts are destroying me.
