I had magical thinking OCD, I was wasting a lot of hours during days doing rituals. Now I do no ritual, I've almost overcome it. My last post was about the thing I was afraid to wear, but I dealt with it. But then I remembered/find out that it wasn't the last thing left with OCD. I'm also so afraid of perfume, because I had a lot of " OCD hallucination" connected with them. (Not real hallucinations, but staff like flashes in eyesight, feeling of touch when a thought comes to my mind). I bought perfume several times and throw them out after some time because I wasn't able to hold the pressure.
The problem is that I don't even want to wear perfume now, but most of the times when I'm dressing, doing my hair I automatically think about perfume, that I could wear it, that it smells really nice, and fear comes to a very hight point that my muscles feel like stones. I can't stop thinking about perfume, my brain do it even when I wake up, and at random times during the day. Not so much I need that perfume, but maybe because I subconsciously want to be absolutely free from OCD. So I get my muscles tensioned many times a day, and I feel really really bad, it affects my physical health too because tension in muscles is extremely bad for me. I need to solve it somehow.
I don't know exactly what to do. I don't know whether I can stop thinking about perfume, or maybe I should buy it. It all is too hard for me.
Please, help. Maybe you can recommend something to me, give me some advice.
Need ERP advice 
OCD is ruining my life 
Life with OCD
My bf has severe OCD 
