Struggling.

[Islande_King]

I'm not doing well.

Since I watched this show on Sunday, I have had an overwhelning flow of disturbing unwanted intrusive images. I don't know whats wrong. The images are less frequent now, but now I have anxiety and depression that they may return.

I have had this happen all my life. There was a time I was convinced a tsunami was coming or that I would drown.

Then I was convinced that I would die for a long period.

Even little things, like did I lock the door? will the house burn down because of the gas? Just these thoughts that would become overwhelming.

I've usually been able to move pass them, realizing they're just thoughts and its whatever.

These ones, where Its people being hurt or assaulted, they are taking a toll.

And I just feel so.. alone?

I don't know whats happening.

[sligoguy]

Take deep breath ,,,this will pass just like it did in the past , Remember this ,,every one gets intrusive thoughts and images ,but us with ocd make a huge deal out of it ,it's just the way we are wired ,we are over sensitive,,,,,and a major part of ocd is the harder you try to stop a horrible thought the more will come that's how this crap disorder works it's tricky and sly ,,,so you have to recognize it and it's tricks ,at the end of the day if you ignore it ,,it will be quiet

[Islande_King in reply to sligoguy]

Gosh Thank you! Sometimes you just need some reassurance!

[Eli_E]

Sending a hug. I know when I first started experiencing really bad intrusive thoughts I felt so confused and alone and the thoughts were so painful. So just know you are not alone and as sligoguy shared, take a deep breath, and continue to acknowledge them as just thoughts.

[Islande_King in reply to Eli_E]

Thank you! I'll try my best to do that. Scheduled an online session with my therapist so hopefully things will improve greatly from here.