I have been experiencing some bad OCD days.
I end up asking lots of checking questions to my husband.
He says that it is OCD, but I keep insisting that this is the last time I will ask him.
Unfortunately, it is never the last time.
Throughout the day, OCD is obsessing upon different doubts, and making me ask him questions on various topics.
In addition, I am doing my own checking to see if I have not made a mistake, while ordering something from Amazon.
Even though, I have checked the order form so many times, OCD was giving me anxiety if I saw that the "Shipping and Handling" showed free, as Prime members.
The doubts still kept coming, and then I checked the entire order form.
Afterwards, still the doubts continued coming back.
Then, suddenly, the thoughts shifted to maybe I saw something missing from our address.
OCD started giving me high levels of anxiety, with feared consequences.
But I did not go and check again.
I am trying to sit with the anxiety, and the feared consequences for some time.
Then, I will put the thought in a corner.
Checking anything just creates a bigger mess with OCD.
Since OCD picks on other things, and starts giving doubts, and makes me feel miserable with the anxiety.
By the end of the day, I feel emotionally drained out, and very exhausted.
I just do not have any mental energy.
OCD is so cruel and nasty.
It does not give me any peace of mind anymore.
My brain is constantly changing topics for obsessions, makes me do compulsions, and in the end, I just feel so sick from it all.
Sometimes, the OCD thoughts, last for days, weeks, or months.
I just wish for a free mind, cured from OCD.