OCD Struggles

I have been trying to sit with the anxiety and the feared consequences, when an obsessive thought pops up of doubt.

After some time, when the anxiety is not extremely high, then I need to start putting the thought in an OCD box.

Somehow, I have not come to this level yet, and my OCD gets in these endless loops, and is literally driving me insane.

It is just one topic after another that OCD just keeps latching upon endlessly.

The pattern is that with every obsessive thought, OCD blames me that because I started a certain topic, that led to this obsession, by which I am suffering.

I am just living in fear as to what I say or do, will OCD fixate upon, and cause me misery.

This is the life of an OCD patient.

[Tcba]

I am with you, desipurple. OCD, at times, is like that computer at the end of the movie War Games, desperately searching for a match to figure out the code so it can activate the launch sequence for the missiles. I, just a few minutes ago, had a crazy random thought pop into my head. I keep working to stand back and observe the thought without judgement. In time, I’m hoping to recreate that thought filter that people without OCD seem to have when they have an intrusive thoughts.

I’ll be thinking of you today. And could you explain what putting the thought in an OCD box looks like?

Thank you for your many good and helpful posts on this site. 💜

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Thank You for your caring and supportive reply.

I really appreciate it.

When I put a thought in an OCD box it looks like that the obsessive thought is sealed, and it is not to be obsessed about anymore.

The box is filled with fear, doubt, uncertainty and the feared consequences which came with

the obsessive thought.

[mopedmike]

Been there done that. I hate to sound like a broken record in these circumstances but here I go again . I ask that you consult with Doctor or Pharmacist so that vitamins and food suplaments don't interfere with a current RX . I eat more bannanas, wallnuts , poultry with whole wheat or oats along with other possible suplaments that can help support healthier serotonin levels in the brain. Remember that the cause of OCD is a low level of serotonin. I've had heart problems so there were some vitamin suplaments that I've had to curtail as a result of not wanting them to interfere with my heart meds , so please consult your Pharmacist and or Doctor. I wont say that it is 100% effective but it has helped relieve a great deal of turmoil for me. I've taken Prozak in the past and it was very effective however it is not natural in my life I like to go natural if at all possible but will take RXs if need be and thanks to my heart problems , I do. I hope you find that helpful.

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Currently, I am seeing a Psychiatrist for OCD.

I am taking Zoloft 300 mg which is an anti-depressant, in adjunct with other OCD medications.

Zoloft provides serotonin to the brain.

Sadly, the medications are not working at my OCD symptoms.

I do eat oatmeal.

[Greekdude]

I had 2 harm OCD incidents the previous days , I wrote them down and it helped me to release my anxiety.

I read in one book that it helps to call ocd with a nickname or just "OCD" , so whenever ocd interfere in my thoughts , I say hello ocd ....it sounds funny and it is but it helps a little bit to think that ocd is nonsense.

Hope you feel better!

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Yes! I do that too. You always have an 'observer self' when your ocd is taking over that can still think rationally, at least to a degree. I find it very helpful to not fight my obsessions and compulsions and instead talk to myself as I go through it. It helps me remember that I exist outside of my condition