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[Appleblossom1]

I’m so scared right now. I have relapsed on my ocd despite being on clomipramine 150mg for years with good “control”. Two weeks ago, Sunday night it all started back up. I called off the next day and took some inderral I had leftover from my doc who prescribed it for stage fright; I was defending my doctorate. I contacted my old psychiatrist and he upped my dosage to 200 mg, the next week I was back to my old self (prob) not due to the meds but thought thank god! Then last Sunday again panic , ocd, intense fear. Psych upped dosage again to 250( the max I’m told) and I started it last night in case I felt worse ( I didn’t want to miss work). Today has been hellish! Panic, anxiety, depression, hopelessness and loops. Feel close to death but don’t want to die. I’m 37, my bday is next week. Reading the posts gives me hope. The thoughts have me fearing I’ll end up dead or in an institution. Can you relate? Anyone with the same story on clomipramine?

[mazkii]

Press on!!

You're gonna beat this. I often forget this, but keep asking questions and asking for help.

[Depresseddoglover]

Hi Apple, I started on clomipramine for severe OCD 15 years ago and was managing well for several years before it stopped working. I switched to Duloxetine (Cymbalta) an SNRI and that helped for many years. I thought I had my demons under control so I weaned off of it and WHAM my OCD hit me like a ton of bricks. Just like you describe - panic, fear, anhedonia, depression, anxiety, hopelessness, worthlessness and looping thoughts. I also feared that something 'terrible' would happen or that I would end up institutionalized and very close to death. It was unbearable. I tried all of my coping skills (CBT and DBT) to no avail because the feelings were too overwhelming. Mercifully, I started on Prozac and that has alleviated many of the symptoms. My hopes and thoughts are with you! Feel free to reach out to me if you'd like to chat. You will get better! Don't lose hope!

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I like to welcome you to the OCD Support Network.

We are here for each other.

We give hope, compassion, help to each other.

I am sorry to hear that you are going through a difficult time.

I suffer from lot of obsessive thoughts.

The thoughts go in loops, and cause high anxiety.

I have been trying some techniques.

Sit with the anxiety and the feared consequences.

The anxiety will be high in the beginning, but it will get lesser.

Later, when the thought keeps popping up, categorize it as an OCD thought.

Then, put the thought away in a box.

I take Clomipramine 50 mg in adjunct with other medications for OCD.

But it is not helping me in the OCD symptoms.

I hope you feel better.