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[Gretajetta]

Hello my name is Greta. I am new to this community and am not sure how it works or what to expect. I have anxiety and panic disorder and OCD. I am 44 but have suffered with these problems since I was a young teenager. I am on medicine for the issues and I think it helps. However my ocd has worsened. I am curious if anyone suffers from the things I do and if the found a way to control it. I have searched for a therapist and finally found one but have nor seen her yet

[Hidden]

I would like to welcome you the OCD Support Network.

We are here for each other in this OCD community.

Postings can be made about what you are going through with OCD symptoms, treatments,

your feelings of struggling, articles on OCD.

In addition, you can reply to other peoples post, by sharing your ideas, giving support and encouragement.

As a team we are here to battle OCD together.

My OCD started when I was 18 years old.

Now I am 44 years old.

It has be a long time with this illness.

I suffer from lots of anxiety associated with severe OCD.

I take medications, but they just help me survive on a daily basis.

I am treatment resistant, thus medications have failed to help me with my OCD symptoms.

I hope it works out for you with your new therapist.

Please make sure she knows how to treat OCD.

[Gretajetta in reply to Hidden]

I am not sure how it will work with the therapist. I think I’m more comfortable on here talking with others. It’s horrible that we all suffer with this but it’s nice to know we can talk and understand each other. I have one friend that I have told about my ocd and he just cannot believe what I go through. It’s so easy to say stop but I can’t. I am a 44 year old female. I have had anxiety and panic and ocd as long as I could remember. I’m a checker with the stove and flicking light switches. It takes me an hour to watch a 30 min tv show because I will rewind and pause and look and rewind over and over. It is torture that they came out with the DVR to record. And we can rewind live tv too. It drives me crazy. My most recent ocd is strange and I’m curious if anyone else does this. For 20 years I would make myself throw up after eating. I am ashamed. I wanted to be thin but then it became I couldn’t stand having food in me. I developed acid reflux and hiatal hernia and had Nissan wrap surged this past March. Just a few months ago. They take your stomach and staple it to your esophagus so acid can’t come up. It is not a surgery to lose weight. However after the surgery it is impossible to throw up. I tried and cannot do it. Ever. So my new ocd is to make my self gag. I will stick my fingers down my throat and do this several times a day just to gag and it gives me relief. My throat hurts and I have to do it at least22 or 26 times. I frustrated and it is actually hard to do now it’s like I have no gag reflex from doing it. I hate the thought of waking up because it’s a new day and it starts all over. Thank you for anyone who reads this. Any help or comments are appreciated. Does anyone else do this? I want to stop but can’t. Thank you for listening. It feels good to share. I wish there was a support group in my town but there is not

[Sukhoi in reply to Gretajetta]

Reading the book 'Getting Over OCD' by Jonathan Abramowitz may sometimes help you. But you have to do the homeworks described in it.

[Gretajetta in reply to Sukhoi]

Thank you. I will definitely check it out. I would do anything that helps.

[Press_on in reply to Gretajetta]

Hi Greta, the suffering with OCD, anxiety, depression is so intense and when I first began dealing with it 30 years ago, I thought then it would eventually pass. It has not. In some ways each year gets a little worse. I can relate to how you feel about waking up because it’s a new day, and I have to deal with it all over again. My medications help, it I still work hard at trying to manage my emotions. God bless you!