Frustration

[tagurit]

So, OCD has been in my life for almost 10 years. All I know is OCD and it terrifies me to not have to deal with OCD. I mean a year and half ago, I went to residential treatment and I came home with my OCD basically gone. Once, I went back to college- my OCD unfortunately came back. My life still really consists of a lot of OCD, but since Im functioning and in college, its like why bother with treatment. And I obviously hate OCD, but I then I feel guilty for wanting to engage in treatment and my OCD wants me to stay in its little bubble. So I don't engage in the ERP. Its like I'm functioning though, I'm not housebound or anything. But Im not able to live. I have no friends,Im not really involved with anything, all I do is OCD. It's quite miserable, if I'm being honest.

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Try to do opposite of what OCD tells you do.

This is the ERP.

Even though you are able to function, you do not want to give OCD a chance to win.

I feel the same way frustrated with just staying in my bubble of not doing ERP.

Mostly, I just end up listening to OCD.

It's because I am treatment resistant, and treatments have failed me.

If doing OCD rituals, is stopping you from making friends, then surely, OCD is taking control of your life.

When I was in college, my OCD was severe.

College is stressful, and OCD escalates during stressful times.

I hope you will get better, and be able to make friends, and do other activities.

Keep trying.