Reassurance?

[dbeck128]

Of course it’s night time, so my anxiety is full force.

I would like to know if anyone has this similar phobia?

I’m scared that one day, I’m going to go crazy. Like the people you see in insane asylums. The ones who don’t know what day, year, or week it is. The incomprehensible ones. Does this make sense?

Like one day, nothing will make sense to me.

Kind of like one suffers with dementia.

Sometimes it feels like my mind is on the verge of it. Or I’m half way there. It goes away, then comes back.

Does this happen to you? Is it normal? And how do you cope?

❤️ thankyou for the replies. You have all been so supportive and wonderful ❤️

[disneyandme]

Hi dbeck128! This is very normal for OCD. I've had this fear as well. I've worried that I'm going to develop psychosis or schizophrenia or that I'm just going to lose my mind as you've described in this post. Anxiety in itself often can make you feel like you're going crazy, so it's not surprising that you start to feel like its "happening to you". Trust me, it's not. I've had this feeling so many times in my life and I'm still here, not crazy, but a person with OCD. This still happens to me off and on, but now that I understand OCD, I'm able to put it more on the backburner. Mindfulness will help this in the short term -- look around and name 5 things you can see, hear, smell. In the long term, please see an OCD specialist if you do not already. This will teach you to be okay with the uncertainty of not knowing what the future holds for us. ❤️ have a good night, get some sleep! These thoughts are not as urgent as your mind is trying to make them feel.

[dbeck128]

You are a wonderful soul, thankyou for these kind words! ❤️

[AlexisKY]

Hi Dbeck128, I’m suffering the same thing tonight too. My mind is automatically jumping to pictures and thoughts of children and even my boyfriends brother. I’m trying to reassure myself as well, but I’m mostly just trying to accept these thoughts, and tell myself that it’s my OCD, and that these are intrusive thoughts, (not actually us meaning we want these thoughts to come true) it’s our brain tricking us. I’m trying to just allow the thoughts to happen, and not feel bad about them because nothing has physically happened, and with my control - nothing will happen. I’ve taken melatonin, Tylenol, and Dramamine (nausea medicine) because that makes me feel out of it/drowsy, and it is putting me to little ease so I can prepare for sleep. I hope this helps you. Just remember, if you were a terrible person, you wouldn’t feel bad for your thoughts or anything associated with them. But since you feel terrible about all this, that means you have a good conscious/heart, trying to fight back - making you a good person, (like me) we’re not monsters, and you’re definitely not alone with the guilt and anxiety. I’m right here with you, if you want to talk. You can reach out with me at any time - even the middle of the night!! If you have any feedback for me also, and how to cope, please let me know! ♡

[disneyandme in reply to AlexisKY]

Alexis! It's so great to see how much you've learned already. This was the first step for me, and soon you'll start to actually believe the words you're saying to others, yourself. I'm super impressed by this response 😊 your therapist will be happy to know you've already learned all of this. Relief is coming soon, hang in there

[AlexisKY in reply to disneyandme]

I’m trying my absolute best! I think it’s the combo of meds I took tonight that’s put me somewhat at ease, I was feeling very panicky a little bit ago while snuggling to my boyfriend watching a movie, thinking of children or his little brother, but I was taking deep breaths, trying to just accept my thoughts (as gross and dark as they may be) but tell myself I’d never act on them at the same time. (Because I wouldn’t) I hope we can all lift each other up, and out of this dark time:space.