Great intentions

[Sj369]

I started of the day with great intentions. I'm moving rooms so I wanted to start washing clothes and putting them in a contamination free zone so I thought I would go to primark and get some big paper bags. Except I bought something (shoes) so I wouldn't look silly but when I got back to the car my mind started to go haywire because I starting linking the pattern and colour to things I had owned in the past that were contaminated. And I broke down crying it's making my life a misery because its finding ways to link everything and it won't just be quiet.

[LuvSun]

Hi there- I can totally relate to you. I have contamination fears as well and know the agony you are feeling. It just makes simple errands so difficult at times. I have been doing a LOT of reading about OCD lately and feel like I am slowly starting to understand fully how it takes control over our thought pattern. I think I can see the light at the end of the tunnel although I know it’s a long road off. Don’t give up hope- there is a way out for us!

[Sj369 in reply to LuvSun]

Its tough and I'm feeling very lost to be honest. I just want one day of feeling peace. I'm so glad you've gotten to that stage I'm sure it took a lot of hard. May I ask what it is your reading? Maybe I could read it too

[LuvSun in reply to Sj369]

I read anything and everything I can but one of the most helpful books ( they are all helpful) but it really spoke to me was “ Freedom from Obsessive Compulsive Disorder” by Jonathan Grayson. I actually heard him speak at the recent OCD Convention in Washington DC this past summer. Another good book that I really liked was “ Brain Lock” by Jeffrey Schwartz. Just do a Google search for OCD and you will get a wealth of helpful information. These books and others can be bought on Amazon or you could probably download from Ebooks.com. So much info is out there.

[Dutch-girl in reply to LuvSun]

I was at the OCD convention last summer too! I love Jonathan Grayson's book too!

[Dutch-girl in reply to Sj369]

I totally understand! I have contamination issues and even pleasurable activities are hindered by OCD and it is so frustrating. I'd like to move to another town but don't think I can manage even sorting through my "contaminated" things. It's so overwhelming. Take it day by day I guess. I hope you find relief.

[bab5]

I know exactly what this feels like.

Having great intentions in the first place is a huge step. Lots of times, I just didn’t want to even get out of bed for weeks at a time.

OCD finds ways to connect literally anything to each other and it is unbelievably debilitating.

I promise, it gets better.

are you on any medication?

[Sj369 in reply to bab5]

Hi yes I'm on sertraline and I'm starting with a new therapist on Tuesday

[bab5 in reply to Sj369]

How has your new therapist been?