My whole life, because of my depression, I have felt as if life is just an empty boring cycle that just drags on soullessly. the one thing that has always made me feel like life is more enjoyable and spontaneous and fun, has been making music, I can play the guitar, the bass, the piano, and I can rap, sing, and death scream, but every time I have tried to start a music project with someone, they have either never turned up to practice, quit on me, or straight up told me they didnt want to bother.
I have joined several music courses at college, but I never really got on amazingly with the other students, I didnt make any enemies or anything, but people just didnt really want much to do with me.
I have tried to do things solo, but it has never worked due to the fact that I find it incredibly mundane and I have never been able to make alot of progress because I dont know how to record, and even if I did then I wouldnt particularly want to because as I said earlier, I find it incredibly mundane.
Is there any way that I can actually bring music into my life properly? because I'm literally on the verge of just saying f*** it, giving up, and living a uneventful depressing life as per usual.