Been lurking too long

[Autisticfantastic]

Been lurking too long here, going through a bad time, I have CPTSD anxiety, depression and a whole host of medical stuff, struggling to get therapy because of insane waiting lists ! Anyone have the same ? In UK north east

[Debaura]

I've been waiting 12 years for help with CPTSD and bpd they keep fobbing me off with antidepressants which haven't worked for years. They keep changing them cos the side effects are sometimes horrendous. Haven't been offered therapy for these specific conditions just 6 months of me talking to a counsellor which achieved nothing that was 12 years ago. I suffer with bad anxiety and they refuse to give me meds for it as they say they are addictive.. had the worst year of my life last year when I was prescribed escitalapram and within one month I took my first overdose of 40 venlafaxine I was told it was my BPD and continued these pills for one year with 13 overdoses and coming close to death on a few occasions. The mental health team suggested doubling the dose I refused. It was only when I ran out of the pills the suicidal thoughts lessened when I took the pills again within an hour the thoughts were back full throttle so I threw them in the bin and called my GP to tell her it was the pills and not the BPD. They are only now putting me forward for psychotherapy. I've been In so many hospitals and prescribed dangerous pills it's a joke. I'm looking for a solicitor to sue the drug company as the black box warning says young people may be at risk of suicide which in my case was totally wrong I'm 54. I've been through hell and the medical profession are gaslighting me. I'm in London UK and my local mental hospital is ran by a gang of west Africans who denied patients medical care made false notes on your records so id I had a BP of 180 to cover their backs they'd write 130 to explain why they didn't call a Dr. When you self harmed they'd hand you a piece of tissue we had to make makeshift bandages with wet wipes and a hair band it was brutal inhumane I caught hypothermia as I was self harming with freezing cold baths and sleeping in soaking sheets for four days the Dr shone a torch in my eye to see if I was dead yet. They knew what I was doing and did nothing. I was ill. I caught hypothermia body temp at 34' and I was screamed at "you've done it to yourself" no Dr was called. I called in the police the cqc mind every organisation.

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