Trying to control everything, Overthinking everything. Thinking and thinking about staying here or being able to work and adapt there

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I'm driving myself crazy overthinking, trying to control everything. I'm now thinking i want to stay home, with mom and sis and no agoraphobia and no roommates, how will i start work, DID I MAKE A MISTAKE APPLING. But my boss seems really nice(the keyboard gave me scary) and i wanted to do this for so long, i really wanted this job, and the moment omm drinks or gets mad i would want to run back to university city. It's not growing up. Espessially with my agoraphobia and Social Anxiety and i get really alone, scared and hungry there. But i'm anxious here. Aghh.