Back in the place I vowed I would never go again

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When my marriage broke down I hit the lowest point I ever had in my life. The doctor prescribed anti-depressants that I refused to take. This episode brought on anxiety attacks and I stopped eating. Things were so bad I ended up in hospital twice. Fast forward almost 5 years and I am in a better relationship, my anxiety has been under control and have been so much better in myself........... until Sunday. Previously I caught my partner of almost 5 years on unsavoury websites..... I forgave him, caught him again back in May and then on Sunday I found out he had signed up to a site paying for videos, photos etc and chatting to girls 😕 I haven’t kicked him out because I don’t want to lose him but starting to think he’s not going to change. I am back in that dark place I was after my marriage broke down, anxiety is unbearable and I can’t eat it makes me feel too sick! I am constantly picking over what I found just constantly taunting myself. It has made me feel so worthless as a woman I feel like I can’t take anymore of it!

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It is important you feel comfortable in your own life and if your Partner is doing something you feel bad about, Talk it out with him and explain how you feel. Consider also asking why He feels He needs this form of interaction on the computer etc

BOB