Depressive impulsive depend in someone.

[Angy_10]

I feel if I lost someone and I were alone... I think I could do horrible things to me; I can’t deal with things alone.

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You need to discuss with your Doctor if you are worrying about self harm or similar, you need to consider the reasons why you are feeling the way you do.

You need to discuss your feelings and expectation, with someone and there are many people here who have suggestions. However Self Harm needs to be discussed and ways to control your feeling with your Doctor and also a course of CBT, if offered may help you relate and come to terms with your problems, especially if you feel you are not respecting yourself when you are cutting

BOB

[Angy_10 in reply to Hidden]

I wish I could accept that, but I already had taken help before and it didn’t help, maybe I just need someone to talk and feel that I’m not crazy.

[Kaytee1981 in reply to Angy_10]

I'll talk to you. I self harm, I would say I'm trying to stop but not as hard as I guess I should be. I'm not crazy your not crazy we are different and sometimes that creates a problem in our lives.

[Angy_10 in reply to Kaytee1981]

Ourselves are the problem in our lives.

[Kaytee1981 in reply to Angy_10]

Interesting take on it.

But I get it, i completely get where your coming from. If we weren't here we cant cause problems for others

[Angy_10]

Wrong. Sorry If I sound rude, but you are not here for helping people, you are here because maybe once you met someone who was sucidal or deppresive and you couldn’t help him/her. So now you come to these comunities faking you are just as sick as we are, and trying to help people with bad supporting conseils. I know that you are faking bc you put a picture of your face in your porfile, someone as depressive as I don’t have the energy and the selflove that we can take a picture of themselves, bc I hate so much myself that the last thing I want to do is take a picture of me and put it in my depressive porfile. Am I wrong? Well... I don’t care

[Kaytee1981 in reply to Angy_10]

You are VERY wrong.

I guess your one of those people that believe if your coming across as happy you cant possibly be depressed. That all those people who were seen laughing with a group of friends hours before they committed suicide were also not depressed?

I guess your not bothered by my story but a brief summary is here anyway take it or leave it-

I started antidepressants after having suicidal thoughts on Christmas day 2018, after that I started self harming and was hospitalized with my first overdose, two more followed and by the end of January 2019 I was in a MH hospital for 4months. Whilst there I continued to try and kill myself and was admitted to general hospital on 3 occasions. I had ketamine infusion therapy and TMS treatment as well as a range of drugs nothing worked. I was readmitted 2 months later after the Crisis house I had been admitted too could cope with my suicidal thoughts and behaviour. I was in for a month. Since then I have taken 2 overdoses that have lead to hospital admissions. I have been under the crisis team more than I can remember and I have a CPN coordinating my care. I am on lithium, pregabalin, duloxetine and promethazine and without them I cant function. I self harm nearly every day and have scars on my arms and legs that will never fade.

I am on this community to find like minded people, maybe to find those worse off than me to help myself feel that bit better, but I'm not ashamed of my experience and what I am going through so I'm happy to share my experiences and thoughts with anyone. I work in a hospital (not doing the job I trained 3yrs to do cos of my MH might I add) so I have a bit of insight into healthcare and the pressures, but I dont think that comes across in my posts, so for you to make a presumption about me offering advice is wrong.

Btw the picture was only recently added and its over a year old. I have not taken any photos of anyone, not me not my children, not my husband, not my pets for as long as I can remember - I dont see the point.