New Year blues

[Mimiqt]

Hi.

Is it just me or is it people with depression find it very hard to feel excited with anything? When other people celebrate new year with much joys and resolutions I couldn’t bring myself to feel it. In fact I slept at 10am last night and woke up to new year.

I’m working tomorrow and I have a lot to prepare. I have trips and duties that I should be looking forward to but I really don’t have the motivation to prepare for those. Is this laziness or fatigue I just couldn’t understand anymore.

Despite this constant low mood I managed to won something to represent my country. I’m required to be active on social media to promote my activities but I’m really struggling to cope with the noise of the social media.

It’s like an irony. Like I was saved from drowning but I’m not breathing.

I’m currently on Escilatopram 10mg with MDD.

[Hidden]

It is hard to be excited on stuff.Alot of times I come off to others as "negative",but with having head injuries,tias, stroke,this is what happens.You change,ur personality changes.Then throw in severe depression from all that n other med issues...what CAN be expected from us.

I do use humor ALOT for distraction,but it's all I have to keep me going.

Some times ya gotta fake it till ya make it

Best to u for this new year..

[Hidden]

Winning your competition, congratulations !, you are now been introduced to your peers, you should be feeling exited, and have so much expectation, everyone would possibly feel tentative at the thought of all the hand shaking. We all feel the same, I am no exception and I prefer my own company, with those around me who know how I feel. In a way I have few expectations when it comes to answer the phone or even attending any meetings, I find tapping away here is something I do and I find that quite good really. I am very insular.

Have you someone who will attend with you

BOB

[Mimiqt in reply to Hidden]

I do have other colleagues with me and they are all very excited. I’m happy although I feel overwhelmed at the expectation sometimes that I do not even care to prepare. Bad moves but really, it’s hard to get started!