Had an enlightenment today. A lightbulb moment.
I hadn’t really thought about is before, but I had my mood was really boosted by an appraisal at work. I wasn’t dreading the appraisal. I didn’t expect good or bad from it. It made me realise I was doing okay, I was actually performing better than I thought.
It’s maiking me feel better a few days later. Not everything is good at the moment having just lost my mother to cancer. Having money worries and trying to manage bills and food. I’m taking each day as it comes and dealing with all the things that need attention.
My point to this post is no one can predict, what will help and you can’t lead yourself to what will give you a major boost. All we can do is the small things we like. Go for that walk, have that little treat, loose yourself in a book and talk about things. It’s the combination of all of this that really does good.
Buying that thing you’ve wanted for ages might give you a boost but that might be short lived. As are many things we do short lived. Even the bad things can be short lived. So getting through these, is keep doing all the small things. My major boost isn’t the answer to all my problems. I keep climbing, I might loose my grip at times but many things keep me going. Even if the sun isn’t always shining, a really good day can be had on a day with torrential rain.
I was thinking something really weird. It sounded weird in my head so I thought I’d better keep this information secret. I believe talking about this secret was the one thing that helped me. I dread to think where or what I would be now. Or what I would be doing and feeling had I not talked about this secret. When I talked about it made me realise It wasn’t so bad.
I have talked and talked before and never really felt better. Consciously withholding this secret information is the one thing I really needed to talk about. It was good to get another view point.
Feeling good, when? Is an impossible answer. You have to make mistakes to learn from them. You have to do all the good things you can and one of them things might just be the solution. We have to have the good and bad.
Best wishes to everyone.