Well Hello everyone

[gbrickhouse]

Not sure what to write here, I guess I'll just say that I have been diagnosed with Bipolar disorder 14 years ago, and live with it every day, I suffer from severe depression that makes me want to exit this earth and meet my maker in heaven and end all my pain several times a week, and have severe Anxiety, in which I take 5 Xanax a day, 2mg bars, to control my anxiety, that just comes on me without warning. The Xanex works very well, even convinces me to think about other things besides suicide. So, there you go, I went from a business owner making six figures with a nice house, 2 new cars, and three young kids, to now to live with my parents, and helping them out and making 750.00 a month on disability. My wife divorced me 14 years ago and took all my money out of our accounts before she left, but I was able to remain in my home till the courts kicked me out. Oh well, God has a plan for me that Im waiting to hear from him what it is. So, I've been single and without a girlfriend for 14 years!

[Daisy777]

Your story sounds a bit familiar. Me, single for 13 years. Have depression and anxiety. I would like to exit this world myself. Yep I’m waiting for something don’t know what.

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Me too..

[MAS_Nurse]

Hi gbrickhouse,

Welcome to our supportive community. You'll find folks are very willing to come alongside each other offer advice and support as you have already begun to see. You do sound like you have been through tough times and trying to cope with so much. Do remember this is an online, anonymous forum, and that the views expressed are drawn from personal experiences, but is no substitute for professional medical advice. We will always signpost you back to your doctor and mental health team if we think you are in crisis and need help.

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[Stilltrying_]

Hi there, I know the lows of bipolar are truly awful and it can and does colour your view of everything and this is probably at the root of what you are saying. I know how hard it is. I have friends who are bipolar and they " dissapear" for months at a time when they can't face the world. Maybe during the times when you feel a little better ( I believe there sometimes are "better" times ) would be a good time to search for a life partner or just a companion or friend?

Hope this helps a little.

G x