Im in 11th grade and the oldest of 3.
ever since i was young i was quiet and wasn't very social. growing up i acted slow(mentally)at home. When my parents would tell me to go get something 3 mins. later i would forget wht tht "something" was. my parents often told me i had book sense but not common sense.
when i was younger there was a time when i was jumping across the sidewalk when i saw a bike coming. when it came close i got a sudden urge to jump in front of it. so i did. or when i tossed a teddy bear at a small round statue above my head only to have it come falling down on me ( i wasn't injured btw).
During the start of school we'd always fill out these questions so the teacher could get to know us. Like what's ur fav color or who's your fav artist. These were simple but it always took me entirely too long to answer them. I'd often think kids at school were laughing at me,they weren't.
2 of my teachers thought i had ADD bc of my lack of focus and constant daydreaming. When people speak to me out of the blue i tense up and just look at them bc when i try to speak my throat shuts & i can't, but im not shy.
I am in no way open w/ my friends. Im afraid of what ppl think of me and im always up late night/morning overthinking things. and there are some times when i am sad for no real reason or up regretting things i have said or done that most likely went by unnoticed. Like questioning wether or not i said thank you to somebody.
Sorry if this is a lot.
Thank you for helping.