Hi all, I’m new to all of this. I only speak to my Very supportive partner who I’ve been with for 17yrs about my feelings and health anxiety thoughts.
I do find it comforting reading other people’s stories as it makes me feel I am not alone. As I think if you suffer from any mental illness it makes you feel so alone.
Looking back now I think I have always suffered from anxiety and OCD. But then It was manageable as I thought it was the norm.
When I was about 13yrs old,out of the blue I suffered from panic attacks & I think the feelings & sensations from each attack made me feel that something was wrong with me, my health. Can’t remember how I over come that but I did.
I didn’t have the best upbringing, moved from pillar to post, parents separate,witnessed attempted Suicides, Physical & mental abuse, family affairs etc.... We had to grow up fast!!
During childhood got in bad habits, smoking, drinking & used drugs from the age of 12yrs.
Then I didn’t know any different, didn’t have the right guidance.
My life changed when I met the love of my life at 15yrs( young I know) we had our first baby when I was 16yrs. We are still together & going strong with 3 beautiful children. I am 31 now.
Well now I’m suffering from Health Anxiety 😢 Spiralled from some medication(ointment) that caused my blood pressure to drop. And with those feelings I had out of the blue, my body just went into an attack. I had no control at all over it. I had the dizziness that was constant for the first month or so, palpitations when My blood pressure dropped b fore the attack, pressure in my ears, shaking,felt faint, flushed. And from that I’m still suffering now like a lot of other people.
I’m always feeling new sensations in my body, mind goes on overdrive, always thinking the worst.
This started on the evening of 4th April 2018.
For the last couple of weeks I’m having more good days than bad days, so that’s something. I still tend to get the pins & needles a lot in my hands and feet, Dizziness, pressure in ears, no appetite, but I make sure I drink plenty of water & eat.
I still can’t get rid of the horrible thoughts like I think I’ve got a bad heart & cancer etc etc...
I do believe it’s important to talk to others about everything & anything. This illness can be so over powering.But also try and tell yourself it will pass, well I do anyway,
So for the essay peeps. Much love to ya all x