*trigger* The train does not stop here

[emparedados]

The virgin train speeds past, everyone it does I think of how easy it would be. I could let the train carry me away, I’d upset some commuters of course but it’d be cleaned up in no time.

Then she messages with some stupid message and I remember why I’m still here. Life feels so hard, like trying to get out of bed when your high and drunk. My body feels heavy and my mind just wants to wonder.

I sometimes wonder that if I don’t end it I’ll get lost in my own mind. Does anyone else feel similar? Like this is all just some great hassle you’re only keeping going with for your loved ones? Or am I just alone in this?

[healthygenes]

Please please,if you are in the uk get to your nearest A&E,they will help you,there is a wonderfull mental heath team to share your problems with, they understand what you are going through, just think of the caos to your nearest and dearest this type of thinking would bring if they knew,if you are not in the uk someone has given some great phone numbers, on the mental health site, sorry I don't have them but I've seen what this does to a familey and they never recover please get help asap.

[Phillipaussie]

Hi there,your o.k. Let me explain,I read your post so bear with me,

I said you are o.k. And you are,why...

You are not alone,you are in a dark place,that's what got me here too.

So, instantly 2 things have already happened to you and you don't see it,

Your still reading,and you reached out,

Not trying to make light of you,or how you feel,no one has that right

Let the trains pass without you,Let life scoop you up you deserve better than where you are at now and it will pass,

You need help there is no doubt about it, there is also No Shame real or imagined about asking for or seeking help,

You still reading, good,

You do need to get to hospital,or talk to someone,

You asked how others felt and I as have many others have been in that deep dark place and we collectively want you to come thru this for everyone's sake but more importantly your own.

I sincerely hope you do talk to someone soon or get to a doctor.

If I can support you thru this I'd be happy to,here if you want to chat,the choice is yours.

Life sounds pretty chaotic but trust me,once you get some order things will pass, Do me a favour and let me know how you get on.

I cut my social media by 100 percent my life improved by 100 percent,

Don't let yourself down hey!

Be victorious.