I would like to say hi to everybody

[RacerT]

Today is my first day to this site and I would like to introduce myself. I am a married mother of two who enjoys traveling water activities and especially motor cycling. I am a very social person , I am often called a social butterfly. Recently I feel very lost and want to find out why with your help🙁

[MAS_Nurse]

Hello racerT

Thank you for your posts. I am so sorry to hear that you are feeling this way. It sounds as if you are such a positive and active person with all the things you are doing.

Our members are very supportive, so may be able to offer more help and support for you.

Have you talked to your doctor about your situation?

It may also help to tell us more about what is happening for you at the moment.

The pinned posts and topics near to this message may offer more information.

The MIND charity might also be helpful at mind,org.

Do take care and keep in touch

Best wishes

[RacerT in reply to MAS_Nurse]

Thank you

[J2DTX]

Hi! I’m new here too. Mother also. Social? Very! Can you tell me more how you’re feeling lost?? What exactly has been bothering u?

[RacerT]

Jenny2tx thank you for responding and I will try to put it in words.

I realize that I see the glass half empty. I always think the worst of any and most situations.. I don't think I was always this way. I eventually became this way because of the people around me and my life experiences growing up. Nevertheless, I really struggle with my thoughts. Sometimes, my thoughts are so obessive to the point I feel as though they are being put in my mind by something else. I am only getting a few hours sleep daily because I lye in bed thinking about everything negative that took place that on any given day

Every little pain, pressure, tightness, tingling, stiffness, bulging, anything, anything at all, I think something is wrong and have made several trips to the ER simply to find out that I was having panic and anxiety attacks.

Most recently there was an event that took place in my family, I couldn't go because I was sick. The next day I miss read a post on Facebook ,a thank you was given and I was blind sided, I knew nothing about or asked to contribute. There is no communication to me from some member's of my family anyway, so in my mind it appeared they left me out again. I responsed by text to my sister how I felt and this was "totally expected" . I seen that I had a missed call the other day so I listen to my voicemail and it was her ! She stated she was tired of me accusing her and proceeded to called me a loser to get a life and she was done and did not want me to be a part of her life anymore. Wow I must of hit a nerve! I tried to call my mom she did not answer nor return my call same with my sister and brother. WTH, I did nothing to them so I am assuming they are siding with her. I hope this make sense, trying not to make this post to long