i'm an enigma. a creator who consumes my work for indiffrence

[StrangerTides]

I've been diagnosed with what i perceive as two conflicting personality disorders. most days this fact hardly bothers me If i even think about it. I've avoided the negative symptoms of one of them but recently found its unyeilding grasp in my thoughts. suddenly i'm afraid of the comfortable half of me...

[Suzie40]

What are they?

[StrangerTides in reply to Suzie40]

antisocial and borderline... the antisocial part was a little distressing to admit, It tends to makes people think i'm a liar that desirves to be hated.

[Suzie40 in reply to StrangerTides]

Just had to google it. I see where you're coming from, the NHS website doesn't paint it out in a very pretty way does it! Looks quite interesting though (and probably rather tiring I would imagine ..)

[StrangerTides in reply to Suzie40]

i'm going to go ahead an assume your talking about the antisocial half which is fairly effortless for me. the borderline is frustrating and together i seem to make me helplessly destroy any chances of enjoying the things i like for very long. i've changed a lot towards the morally correct way of living with since my diagnosis for ASPD it seems knowing things about what your dealing with makes all the diffrence.

[Suzie40 in reply to StrangerTides]

Yes, I was referring to that. I like that way you write; it's capturing.

[StrangerTides in reply to Suzie40]

i've always found it a little odd. its like i go out of my way for the tiny chance i'll make the meaning behind my words slightly more understandable. even though i struggle to make sense when i'm talking about the important things to me.

[Suzie40 in reply to StrangerTides]

I love written language. I like it when people vary shorter sentences with more complex ones. I love punctuation too. Did I mention I'm on the spectrum?! x

[StrangerTides in reply to Suzie40]

life has a way of changing everyone diffrently though. i see it as a baseline for when i'm having in a bad mood. i tend to be a little closer to the definition during those times.