Update

Hi guys just an update, I started work a while back, confidence up etc etc and as it's as and when needed there's no work for the next 12 days I'm starting to feel low again, I can feel IT starting to appear and it's scary. For the first time in weeks I've started drinking again. I hate this darkness

[Gazzathomas]

Hi Phil , try not to drink buddy it really won't help trust me on that one. Maybe try and pretend that your on leave for two weeks and do holiday stuff to keep your mind distracted ? Gaz x

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Hi, please get as much support as you can - we all need help sometimes. Doctor or mental health team, or whoever you choose. I know it can seem impossible, but I stopped drinking nearly 3 years ago, it can be done, but no-one should have to go through this alone. Hugs😊

[20Voices]

Hi, So when you are not working you find it hard to cope. Why don't you look into what you can do when you are not working. How about some volunteering or taking up a hobby or even arranging to go to the library and do an online course. There are lots of free courses on offer from universities and colleges.

It is scary not knowing what you are going to be doing, but having something to occupy yourself and which is helping you to get better will help.

I agree with Gazzathomas about getting help with your drinking, it is okay to ask for help when you need it.

Take care.