Why Do I Make All My Good Memories Bad?

[gingkaz]

i've been struggling a lot to make myself happy. i've looked up many different ways to make yourself feel better and one of them is to look back on the good times, but i can't. the "good times" all turn bad in my head.

for example, i was thinking about when i got excited to see a book that my friend had that i've wanted forever. learning that she likes the same author made me really happy and she let me skim through the book. it was great! when i look back on it though, all i can is imagine myself breaking the things on her nightstand or damaging the book. that didn't happen at all, though. it's so bad that i can't associate that book with being a positive thing because i keep having these bad, fake memories.

is this normal? does everyone do this? why do i make all my good memories bad?

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[nedd]

Hi I have no answer to your question,

I could try spouting one of theories, but I am not qualified and know nothing of your life. But I would say that any strategy you try needs to be practiced daily to reap any benefits. It's a bit like training to be an athlete training daily is a must to strength and sustain.

I spent a lifetime of trying to avoid disrupting thoughts. Things are are round via news tv, the Internet in print and on the streets. To feed an over active imagination.

Are you under medical care. If not touch base with your Doctor.

You might want to explore mindfulness if you haven't already.

Have a good day.