I'm struggling daily with my depression . But what I'm finding really hard is learning more about depression etc. and comparing myself to others . Basically I thought everyone felt like me(depressed) and they don't .
I would like to find a relationship but everyone I've had has been abusive /they have cheated .Every method I try fails . It's hard not to compare to other people enjoying their life . I don't enjoy anything .EVERYTHING I want seems out of reach to me ( getting married, a stable career , kids etc). It's so frustrating because even my abusive ex seems to have met someone.
I live with ever impending doom, I don't feel I have a future. My biggest fear is living with my parents forever particularly my mentally ill dad. I can't afford to move out . I've got some online Skype therapy coming up . I just don't know where to start.
I'm just ranting really . Thanks for reading .