Well today isn't going well feeling desperately depressed and lonely! I wish I could shake myself out of this stupidness. I feel like I am letting everyone down. Shouting at every single little thing crying uncontrollably. I body aches my heart aches and I just can't explain to anyone how low I am I feel like I am dead inside that I just exist. I so want to get out of this hole but fear I am in here for keeps!
I feed my family help my neighbours translate for everyone go to hospital appointments with my mum (I don't mind I love her with all my heart) My brother???? Well not much I can say about that situation!
I hate feeling like this hate it so much. Just want to find me again ! But I am lost so so lost and so so lonely