long weekend alone in my mind.

[muslimLAD]

am glad im not working this weekend but i will spend the week end alone with my thoughts and self pity which will lead me to hibernate for 2 days. just wanted to get it out so started typing. i wish i had the strength to start looking for a new job but the phrase better the devil you know comes to mind. and keeps me from taking that first step of trying to get a new job

[WhiteAlice]

Aw. Don't give up. Just take a deep breath & try again later. I know the feeling. I was finally starting to feel really good & I made plans to get out tonight & tomorrow night. One by one my friends are backing out. I'm not surprised. I spent the last 5 years completely involved with the ex bf & my son. So friends have plenty if advice, but no time. I'd go out by myself if it didn't make me feel so pathetic. If you weren't an ocean away I'd take you with me.

[muslimLAD in reply to WhiteAlice]

I hate this feeling of loneliness its killing me from inside i dont know how to cope on my own

I have my family around me but i seem desperate to have the friendship of one person who has no time for me

[WhiteAlice in reply to muslimLAD]

It's rough to be alone, but I swear it's worse to feel alone when you're surrounded by people who love you. When you long for someone particular who doesn't respond it will make your heart ache. Distraction helps for a bit, but the only cure is to find new connections. I know how it feels.

[muslimLAD in reply to WhiteAlice]

i feel like this is it for the rest of my life and that i will never have friends.

i feel like iv become needy to be around people and dont feel comfortable on my own.

[WhiteAlice in reply to muslimLAD]

That's because we all need to be connected. Humans are social animals. You won't be alone forever. Follow my lead: take a class, join a club, find a new social circle. It may not produce an abundance of friends, but you may meet one or two very special people. Also, reach out on sicual media for people you new when you were younger. Reconnect. Stay in touch here. You are not alone.

[muslimLAD in reply to WhiteAlice]

thank you i think i just have my hopes set on a miracle to be honest with you as im not a strong person at heart

[WhiteAlice in reply to muslimLAD]

Welll then, I believe in miracles. Don't you?

[muslimLAD in reply to WhiteAlice]

i do and im hanging on for one but i dont believe il get it.

[WhiteAlice in reply to muslimLAD]

Alright, tell you what, message me. I will talk to you.

[Reposting1]

Reach out there boy

I was there and I done it , look for some one WHO YOU can talk to who is OUT of your circle and pour your heart out and I'm sure someone is there further on for you .

Don't just try do it

[muslimLAD in reply to Reposting1]

i just need to learn how to let go of some people. only problem is they live locally and i just seem to long for their time.

and when someone does give me time i dont want to let them go. desperate times.

as soon as i find someone i think i end up relying on them and when they disapear i dont know how to cope on my own

[Reposting1]

When I said out there didn't mean here on this site I mean out , outside out of your circle of people , someone you may of met once or twice , someone to introduce you to new friends , you'll always have this site . Join a group , ' walkers/ramblers ' or something , look on the library notice board

[Reposting1]

I hope you're trying and sending some messages up to there in your prayers . I've been lonely like you and the only way out is to make an effort , get on the bus to somewhere or the pictures listen to lots of xfactor first auditions on your iPhone with earphones and fill your head with music

Stick in there lad

[muslimLAD in reply to Reposting1]

lol at xfactor. the world is a harsh and lonely place. im just plodding along at the moment this illness seems to be winning and i see no future for myself. im not coping at work and cant seem to let go of a bad friend whos not been there for me at all.

[Reposting1 in reply to muslimLAD]

You've got my sympathy lad don't stop trying , we are all here for you to talk to about it .

[muslimLAD in reply to Reposting1]

iv deleted my so call mates number although i still think about getting in contact with him i need to stop focusing on him as my cure.

i have also been given medication for anxiety so im on two lots of medication.

somedays it feels like this will never end and im stuck like this for life. im not sure how things are going to pan out but the future feels bleak at the moment

[Reposting1 in reply to muslimLAD]

Hi there

Don't lose your mates number but don't be frightened of speaking to people and remember would you make your way to speak to someone who is really miserable , always try to wear a smile in front of them , put on your imagery plastic smile and pretend to feel normal , every one wants to avoid someone who is miserable

[Reposting1 in reply to muslimLAD]

That should have said your ' imaginary ' plastic smile ( predictive text )

[Reposting1]

Stick in there and make the best of what you've got for now till another door opens

[muslimLAD]

thank you very much im getting there slowly medication seems to be helping and in touch with one friend. but scared if he disapears il be back to square one.

i hope your well