I'm 25 and all my life my dad has been a dead beat loser and after all these years I've finally confronted him about it and I told him he is a terrible father and he is lousy and he slapped me to the floor. I'm tired of getting physically, mentally and emotionally abused by men who I love. I just got out of a horrible 3 year relationship with my ex a few months ago and here goes my own father telling me I should kill myself and that he doesn't care and throwing the fact that he slapped me in my face. I deal with depression, anxiety, and self-harm. I thought fathers were suppose to protect, love and care for their children. I want to cut him off completely but I also want to forgive myself and be free from the fact that he is my dad and I must be close to him when if fact I want nothing to do with him. He is a sociopath that doesn't respect women he has serious anger issues. How do I deal with this? Someone please help me? This is hurting me mentally. And I'm fighting depression because of what happened last night. He bruised my eye and face, plus my body is sore from trying to fight him. I can't believe I let a man hurt me again I feel weak that I couldn't do anything because he is 6/3 and I'm 5'4.