Constant state of fear leaves me frozen&trapped....

[sammienicole23]

Everyday that I wake up lately, I'm not even particularly happy I woke up. Because, I know my anxiety and "feelings" are just going to ruin any chance of even a "normal" day not even so much a good one. I can't get through the day without getting dizzy, my legs locking up, and my heart feeling weird( I either think its too fast or too slow and am constantly checking it)... I can't go anywhere alone and even with my bf I feel like everything is about to go terribly wrong when I step into the outside world. Ive basically secluded myself to my bed because every time I get up I feel weird, like everything is moving or almost like I forgot how to walk.... Idk what to anymore.

[Hidden]

Hi this sounds like anxiety rather than depression. There are 2 good anxieth sites on here for this so you might get more help on there.

Have you been to the doctors about this? Maybe meds and/or counselling could help you? x

[sammienicole23 in reply to Hidden]

Yes I have been to soooooooo many doctors... haha, they all agree its severe ptsd from past events and gad and panic Disorder I as on medicine since 2010 but just dh my daughter two weeks Ago and wasn't safe to take them while pregnant, but hoping they put me back on them tomorrow and they work as well as before. It's just never gotten to the point that I freeze up or feel 'dizzy' and unsteady while walking and its constant.

Xo thanks for the Support!

[Olderal]

Your post sounds more related to the anxiety forum than depression but I think you should see your GP if its reached the stage where you have secluded yourself to bed .

In the meantime I do hope things improve for you. The mind likes to scare us sometimes for some reason. Deep down you know that nothing terrible will happen if you step into the outside world, you've done it thousands and thousands of times.Either on your own or with your best friend.

Just put your mind in its place. Who does it think it is,scaring you ? Your heart won't let you down so try and ignore your mind's treacherous whispers about it.

i don't understand why our minds play this trick that leads us to think "Have I forgotten anything? Is my heart OK? What do my friends think of me? Did I lock the door ? "etc etc. Tell yourself you're in charge ,not your mind, but don't upset it too much .You might need it in an hour.

Its rather like kids imaging someone's under the bed. They don't stop to ask themselves who in their right mind would hide under the bed but their young minds like to scare them. Its time psychologists looked into this.

Best regards Olderal

[sammienicole23 in reply to Olderal]

Thanks that truly helps. I've struggled with this for so long... just has never been so unbearable. Thanks so much! Will update you after my doctors appointment tomorrow😃

[jimbroker]

First, greetings neighbor....and I know of all of which you speak. Having been diagnosed with OCD and a subset of OCD, Hypochondriasis....is a constant fear of ill health.....having vertigo, dizziness....esp as the day wears on I can recommend the local Recovery Inc. Groups.....these are groups designed for anxiety and depression issues......the groups are very structured and work well. I have a list of places and meetings if you are interested, or you can google Recovery Inc. Note: it has nothing to do with addiction problems as the name would seem to suggest. They help you deal with these feelings, which are almost exclusively arising from intense anxiety and fear. Also I have book recommendations that may help. Blessings jim