i'd like to talk about derealisation for a bit.

I have spoke to my parents, school and friends about this. Not one person has had a clue what i'm on about.

I go through states of feeling like im in a dream, or watching my life through a television screen. It's harmless, but strange. I find it quite fascinating that I am able to feel this way..I've still yet to figure out why it happens to me but it may have something to do with my lack of sleep. I get very little sleep most nights, on a good night i'll fall asleep about half 2 (am). And I wake up early. Sometimes I'm so tired that I actually feel drunk! It's kind of funny, and I think it's cool I can feel drunk and light without actually consuming anything! Sometimes I don't feel anything though, like I've gone numb. It's scary but only because I don't know why it happens.

I wonder if i'm making any sense to anyone right now..

anyways, I hope you are all doing well! :)

- Robyn xx

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  • hi Robyn, firstly this is something that many people on here will understand. it's quiet at the moment, but I'm sure you'll get more replies tomorrow.

    take care,

    hamble :)

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  • Thank you :) haha

    -Robyn xx

  • Hi Robyn. I have had this since I can remember! From the age of maybe 4 or 5, sometimes it lasts a few days and sometimes comes in stages. I am 29 now and it has never gone away but does come and go. Do you find that looking in the mirror sometimes you feel like it's not yourself staring back at you, or that walking down the street it's like you are watching yourself walk along? I was on anti depressants for a while they actually made it worse, but I found that having a stable sleep routine and getting to bed early and reading beforehand helps the insomnia which in turn helps the depersonalization. To the best of my knowledge there is no specific drug to help it, but since it is linked to depression, bipolar and anxiety and panic attacks (it is actually classed as a type of panic attack) you may be able to get something for it. Best to try natural sleeping herbs first and exercising before bed. That helped me for sure. Also, I was a party animal whilst living in London and Ibiza and drugs and alchohol made it WAY worse as well as the anxiety and depression. So it's best to try and be healthy.

  • Finally! Someone who understands me, lol :)

    I have definately felt that, sometimes i feel like my whole life is a dream, i'm not controlling myself and i always wonder why i wasn't born as something else. What will the doctor say if i bring this up with him/her? will they think i'm completely "mental" and want me to go into some sort of care place or is it normal for me to feel this way?

    I'll try get my sleeping routine sorted out, i'm just so tired all the time yet i can't sleep, hopefully that'll change. Thank you for your advice/story, it was helpful!

    - Robyn xx

  • These stories are very similar to mine so you are not alone in fact I was told I was normal to feel the way I am. Now 60yrs I still feel the same as when I was a 3yr old it's like we are 2 people or perhaps we are looking from the outside in or maybe inside to the outside but definitely 2 different people so now I just go with the flow but I find it hard talking about my experiences this site is an exalent why to communicate without feeling ashamed or alone for they are many who are like us but they just need to open up and tell others how they feel so we don't feel so alone

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