I can't stop crying today

nothing else to say really. Hope you are all ok, Suex

[Gambit62]

Sorry to hear that - exhausting when you are already so tired.

[Hidden]

Hello Sue

How can we help ??

BOB

[MsSad]

Hi sue,

Sorry you're having a bad day x

I've been the same today, maybe there's something in the air!

Not sure if I can say anything to help but am here if you need

Big bear hug x

Nikki

[Hidden]

Oh thanks, all. Not sure how anyone can help as I just drop into a self-pitying state which comes from way back when I was a child and then throughout my life, but which was never expressed at the time because I was too closed off to turn to people for comfort. Now I can, and do, but it feels as though every time anything hurts me or reminds me of feeling hurt I drop back into that same state. Probably something will shift it in time as most other things have shifted over the years. I'm waiting for an appointment with the local mental health recovery team and hope they may be able to offer me some coping strategies that work, or a period of CBT and then support, or maybe support that enables me to feel positive about joining some of the local activities, which exist but which I always feel negatively about. I think CBT may help me to view things differently, though I imagine I will be highly resistant to change as well because the negativity has been there for a long time, and also because I always had to hide how I felt until my 40s and so letting go of the feelings is hard and raises more negativity - cyclical. Enough self-pity for one day!! Thanks again for being there and reading all the stuff I write.

Suexx

[Stilltrying_]

Hello Sue, I didn't know what to reply to your post but I just wanted you to know that I did read it.

Me too I get into states wherein I don't feel that anyone can help me.

The way I get through is to get as much help as I can (whilst feeling very "separate" like I'm really strange and so it is very hard to try and get help) and also telling myself that it will pass.

I am glad you can write on here. No need to reply. Hope it starts to pass soon and please keep expressing yourself whenever you need to . X

[Photogeek]

Hi Sue my heart goes out to you.Sometimes we need to cry to let that pain out

And let go of trying to be in control.

X

[Hidden in reply to Photogeek]

Thanks for your care but I stopped trying to be in control 20 years ago but still find I feel the same pain and grief relating to the trauma of the past. I've just been watching on Channel 4 about EMDR therapy being great for moving on from being stuck in trauma responses and will follow that up as I already knew it might help me. I do express my feelings very freely now, it's always better to do that. Suex

[Photogeek]

Thanks Sue

X

[Suzie40]

Hi Sue, just want to you to know that I'm reading all your posts and that you are in my thoughts at the moment. I will help in any way that I can x

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Thanks Lucy

It's always nice to know people are thinking inf me and I am feeling a lot better today, lighter and more energetic. Maybe because of the sun I have woken up to, birds in the garden and we saw the first bumble bee today! Spring is here, great! Hope you are ok. Suexx

[Photogeek in reply to Hidden]

Sue glad your feeling a bit better today.Its bright here too and

Spring like lol.

Hannah x