Holly where are you:-)

[sheffield1978]

Hi holly hope your OK and managed to get to the drs this morning drop me a text so I know your OK please xxxxx

[Golfer15]

Hi Sheffield, Have you heard from Holly yet. I last heard from her on Tuesday night. Since she asked for help on here I have spoken to her every day. She last told me that her self harming was getting worse and her suicidal thoughts were more. Im worried about her. This is a support forum and we have offered each other support. Please let me know if you hear from her.

Hope you are well.

[sheffield1978 in reply to Golfer15]

Hi

No I haven't heard a thing from her since Tuesday either I'm really worried and hope she managed to get to the Dr I am on 1to 1 at the moment everywhere I go staff do but I'm sure I will get there in the end. Hope your OK

Sarah x

[Hidden]

You know I'm sure she will be fine, she did say she has survived until now and is likely to go on doing so. We must trust her to look after herself sufficiently or seek help because no one can help her beyond a point. I hope you two are ok? I'm not feeling so bad today as I had to go for a good long drive this morning and then talked with someone about my past and it was really helpful. I feel a lot better for having shared some of it - even though it wasn't therapy it was therapeutic! Take care, Suex

[sheffield1978 in reply to Hidden]

I hope so sue her situation just sounds a lot like mine and you can't help but worry about someone I'm sure you have done enough of it while being a member on here. What I wouldn't give to go for a drive anywhere would do today glad it helped tho and sometimes just someone taking the time to listen is all that's needed x

Sarah xx

[Holly101 in reply to sheffield1978]

God I'm so sorry for worrying yous all! I didn't see this post up until just there!

I just hadn't realised that much time had gone by.. You know what its like when you feel like that, you just loose track of time..

I slept a lot, and the days just turned into one foggy miserable ball of time that rolled by

unnoticed, I'm really sorry for worrying you!!

I'm ok, honest, but thanks so much for your support

Lotsa Luv , Holly Xx

[Hidden in reply to Holly101]

Good, glad you are ok, and you must have needed the sleep because even if you feel low it's almost impossible to sleep too much. Take care and start thinking about your life too. You and Sarah could talk about what you would do if you could and maybe I can give you some nudges. That was all it took for me years ago to make the first moves towards changing my life. Suexx

[Holly101 in reply to Hidden]

Thanks Sue You're one of the most caring, considerate people I've came across in a long time!

Remember not to forget about yourself though!

Love, Holly xx

[Hidden in reply to Holly101]

Aw thanks, but I'm a lot further down the line that you are, and a lot older too!! Suexx

[Holly101 in reply to Hidden]

Aah, not THAT much older! Xx

[Hidden in reply to sheffield1978]

Hi Sarah, Yes, I agree, it helps to know there is someone to turn to even though they can't do anything except care, that's better than nothing. I've never asked you what you would like to do with your life? Suexx

[sheffield1978 in reply to Hidden]

I wouldn't have got them the last few months without the support from you lot on here Im not sure what I want to do in the future I am just trying to get thri the days at minute

[Holly101 in reply to sheffield1978]

Big hug to you too Sarah,

I hope you're ok and I'm sorry for worrying you!

I'm off to bed, it's been a long tiring day and I'll have to do it all again tomorrow..

Hope you get a sleep!

Lots of love, Holly Xx

[sheffield1978 in reply to Holly101]

So glad your OK got to sleep by banging my head off the wall last note they still haven't sorted meds but I have asked to see the Dr tomorrow as its beyond a joke now I'm so relieved or OK x

Sarah XXX

[Holly101 in reply to sheffield1978]

Hi honey how are you today? I'm sorry for worrying you the other day, I don't know what happened, I just missed a day!

I hope you've seen the doctor by now and they've sorted your meds, coz

this is ridiculous!

Hang in there hen, thinking of you,

Lots of love, Holly Xx

[sheffield1978 in reply to Holly101]

Its OK holly don't worry about it wish I could miss days while I'm here I just worry about people that's my nature like today its emms no the only Dr I have seen is a medical student she says thy are still discussing medication seems because I don't want to take any heart medication they think I don't want any at all told them its beyond a joke now for the last 2 nights I have had to smash my head off the wall to knock myself out to get sleep anyway moan over hope your OK XXX

[Holly101 in reply to sheffield1978]

Hi huni,

That's shocking! Is there no-one you can complain to?

have you ever heard of the carecommission? They look after the welfare of people in carehomes, start threatening them

you're gonna get in touch with them, and they'll soon spring into action!

I'm ok, can't be bothered doing anything, just sitting in the house avoiding people..

I hope Emms is ok, have you got her phonenumber?

You hang in there in there, thinking of you!

Lotsa luv and a big hug,

Holly Xxx

[sheffield1978 in reply to Holly101]

hi holly sorry its taken awhile to reply but really hadno news nowi do meds were finaally sorted at half 11 last night but i took your advice and i have wrote to thecare comission to complain i have also made a complaint here too.

i havent got a number for emms and tobe honest im really worried but there isnt nothing i cando well apart from worry lol.

how are youhope your feeling a little better and able to face at least a few people

[Holly101 in reply to sheffield1978]

Aw that's good news you got your meds sorted! Was that before or after you told them you were going to the carecommission

Honestly, it's like a magic word in places like that, you never see them springing into action so fast as when you mention the carecommission!

Are they making you feel any better? They might take a few days to kick in right enough..

I'm worried about Emms too, I'm hoping she just can't be bothered writing just now.. Hopefully we'll hear from her soon.

I'm feeling a bit better I just can't be bothered doing anything.. No motivation what so ever.. I should go for a shower and I've no food in the house but I'm just sitting smoking fags and drinking tea, still in my pyjama's..

I'm glad you got your meds sorted, about time too!

Hopefully we'll hear from Emms soon, you take care luv,

Lotsa luv, Holly Xxx