The last couple of days I've found it hard to summon up energy to do anything. I have so much to do at home, but I just can't get down to it. I found one of my young rats dead yesterday - I suspect a dispute within the cage. My oldest girl was also being bullied. I love my rats, but it's so hard when things like this happen.
I have church today - going in early as I'm on IT. Unusually, I feel apathetic about that, too.
I think this changing weather has a lot to do with changing levels of energy. I've been sleeping at strange times, then wide awake when I should be sleeping etc! All very frustrating! really sorry to hear about the rat. Hoping church has helped to make you feel a bit better? X
Hi, sorry, it sounds as if you are having a hard time at the moment. The weather hasn't helped being clammy but now changeable, at least it is a bit fresher now. Hope you feel better soon.
Suexxx
I do struggle with the weather - at least it's cooler today.
Church proved 'interesting' as I was trying to do the CD recording (untaught) as well as doing the IT! I had a couple of IT hiccups this afternoon - the first nobody would have known about as fortunately, I was able to do a work-around, but wish I knew why Powerpoint wouldn't act as it should. The second I left the congregation without some song words because I was fiddling with the other machine - but it was well-known!
The rats are behaving well today, but I feel so sad about Ash - she was a lovely young rat, and it is only a week ago today that my real baby, Downy, was found dead. I think the heat has upset them. They were bullying my old girl, so I've separated her with just one other girl and they seem happy.
I see my GP tomorrow. I'll probably have to have weekly blood tests for some time because of my medication for polymyalgia rheumatica - annoying. I should get my next appointment for the psychiatrist through for a couple of weeks - I'm hoping it's not when I'm away - I might ring them tomorrow to say when I'm here, as I have two lots of four days away - one is a "Be Creative" retreat and the other is "Digital Imaging". I must see what I need printed for the competitions - not motivated with any new ideas. I really need to do a 12-slide slideshow as well - probably on the months of the year. I do know that photos of my pets are not appreciated!
So depressed 
I think i may be depressed but i don't know what to do. Its been going on for about two years now constantly feeling down, crying, 
Losing my council tax relief and other stress 
Have faith and courage
Depression and severe apathy 
