I awoke feeling ok this morning then.....

[Lois1959]

I posted the other day that I was having vivid dreams....I still am but the one common theme I have noticed that for some reason a train always seems to be involved.

This morning I got up as usual (early always do) and started thinking about a song which connected to Bridget Jones: The edge of reason which then connected to the first car my husband bought and happier times. I said in my question about vivid dreams that the dreams usually involved people that I was close to me (majority involved my ex somewhere).

I then looked up at the sky....grey here; the disadvantage of living in the east midlands at the moment. That depressed me as everywhere else seems to be basking in sunshine.

I now feel really down. I have put on some weight and that is making me feel worse than ever as I have never had to worry about my weight before. I am not on any meds for depression at the moment. I took myself off Citalopram after a visit to the GP (a locum) who told me it could exacerbate a previous medical condition. I am on vitamin B12, vitamin B and Iron...could this be the cause? I have thought of a few other things it might be...so I think I am going to have to go back to GP. My eating habits are constant so I don't understand it. I thought I felt down before but this is just making things worse.

[Golfer15]

Have a good day Lois. Cant talk now. Keep smiling.

[Hidden]

Hi Lois

It sounds like you are having a hard time at the moment. Keep recording your dreams and thinking about what they make you think of as the more you process them the more you are likely to be easing the mental stress. I had hundreds of dreams at times in my life when I was going through a lot of psychological changes and it was really helpful as over time they came to mean a story to me, I could see what they were about and think which was so helpful. Trains in dreams are often related to the idea of a journey and sometimes the journey is life itself.

Coming off Catalopram will have altered your mental state for a while and you may be having too much Vitamin B12 so I wouldn't take too much of the Vit B and B12 without checking on the safety of having both at the same time! Often weight gain accompanies depression, but also it can relate to age - I never gained weight when I was younger except when I was pregnant but suddenly weight gain started and I realised my Mum began to gain weight at the same age. Can you ask to be referred to the weight management service via your GP in order to nip that in the bud?

It would be worth speaking to your GP again especially about meds - if you only came off because of side effects and felt less depressed with them then the GP could prescribe an alternative.

Sorry you haven't got the sun - we haven't got it today either! It's grey and cloudy.

Keep writing,

Suexx

[Lois1959 in reply to Hidden]

Hi Sue,

Thank You. The vitamins were prescribed by my GP and I have just had blood tests to check levels which came back normal but told to carry on taking them to maintain levels.

I think I would get more mileage out of seeing the practice nurse although she would have to clear any treatment with GP.

I have considered other causes; IBS, I do get mild pain occasionally and always feel bloated. Also underactive Thyroid or may be I need HRT as I have gone through menopause but suffer horrible night sweats and sometimes they do occur during the day usually at inappropriate moments!