Dont like my penis

[tiz_tom]

I've recently been dealing with alot of stress when it comes to my penis and around that area, I was born with a buried penis, sevre hypospadias and undeceding testicles. I've had everything fixed apart from my hypospadias. Although I've had some operations it still dosent look normal and never will, the operations have not been 100% successful and have left me with alot of scaring and a disfigured look. last year I went to get my serve hypospadias corrected and was told they couldn't operate on the head of my penis due to a skin graft that didn't take from a previous operation. I've only recently opened up to a girl I was chatting to about it when it hit me that I'm not happy with it one bit, I was never happy with it but only hit me recently how much I dislike my body. Recently I have made myself sick from stressing over it where I had held it in for so long.

I am about to turn 23 years old and it has made me less confident and low self esteem. It has affected my relationships to the point I only date people I know coz I'm to scared go open up about it and I'm also worried about having sex due to what females might think as well as performance anxiety.

Was wondering if theres anyone in a similar situation who knows anyway to deal with it. I'm going to be having a meeting with a therapist next week coz I think I may have Body dysmorphic disorder.

Thanks in advance

[Hidden]

Sorry you have so many problems. I am not a Dr or therapist. My thought is a therapist if possible, only because you are not happy. I think, that may be 1 step. Other is turning lights low for a bit, and doing what you are doing-talking with partner. I wish you best on your journey

[tiz_tom in reply to Hidden]

Thank you, for the time being I will continue talking to close friends, I have my first therapist meeting on the 11th of November

[Hidden in reply to tiz_tom]

Talk to friends and below stated, a rough start. I believe therapy is a positive option and glad you sought it out

[Hidden]

You had a difficult start in life. Normally hypospadias is corrected in the first few months of life. I am sure that seeing a therapist will be helpful. Take care.

[tiz_tom in reply to Hidden]

I had it corrected when I was young but later had to have it undone because it was preventing penis growth and also making it curve, I got the hypospadias undone during my buried penis operation

[Hidden in reply to tiz_tom]

You have been through a lot. We all seem to have some kind of heath issues. You have had your share-wishing you progress and the best. Keep posting if you choose

[giovanna00]

I'm a girl and I don't think a girl would mind about your penis that much, she would care about your performance, don't think too much about it.

All girls are also insecure about their own bodies, maybe you could tell her before sex just so she wouldn't be surprised or mess things up questioning stuff during sex

[tiz_tom in reply to giovanna00]

I agree I don't think girls would mind but I've yet to be shown that side, but that could be due to my relationships not going well. I'm gonna try and get comfortable with my body because I feel like if I like my body then I won't have to worry or need to be reassured by other people's options.

[Hidden]

Well I am taken with your situation. Was an NCO in the Army had had a great soldier going downhill from how he regarded his micro penis. It affected is relations with the Females and he finally came to me and opened up about it. You are doing the right thing- you need to have therapy walk you back to enjoying your body. I have met a lot of folks, a lot of them sorry to say were the gals that don't fully understand just how important our penis is to,..., US. You have truly been thru a rabbit hole for sure and I hope you can get to a place where you see yourself how you hope to be seen. I could not fix my soldiers ideas of himself, NCO are parent figures in the military but not docs but the one thing I did do right was I got him in the gym and as far as his total body, in 6 months he was a GOD. I was a heavy lifter and I brought him into our NCO circle of lifters in Germany and you could see the positive change in him as his body filled out coupled with his weekly mental health counseling. 4 years in Germany and a few months before I left Germany, he had gotten married, and life was looking up for him.

As Males we are judged in so many ways, no need to start out with what we see in ourselves as a deficit. It just taints everything else in life so yes therapy is an excellent start. All the best in your journey! - S