My depression

[Depressed_Individual]

Hello everyone, I just joined the group. I was diagnosed with depression at a young age and until recently I was managing it well. That all changed in December 2024. I was very stressed out so my doctor decided to switch me from Escitalopram to Effexor. Ever since then my depression has been a nightmare. I constantly feel down and I often consider suicide. Today is my birthday and leading up to it all I wanted to do was feel better. Today has been such a hard day. I searched for a rope to hang myself. I told my mom that I wanted to kill myself. I just feel miserable. I have spoken with multiple therapist and other mental health professionals. Talking hasn’t helped. I don’t know what to do anymore and I am scared I won’t make it. I switched back to Escitalopram about two weeks ago and I am weaning off of Effexor. Can anyone help or support me? Thank you

[StillClimbing]

I have a lot of experience with depression. First, I'm so glad you're telling your mom how bad you feel! That takes a lot of bravery. But I'm so sorry that you've been suffering like this. I want to tell you what I tell my kids and try to always remember. This pain is not forever. Even when it feels like it will be, even when your entire brain insists that it will be. Time does pass. Things do change. And what the therapists say is true: suicide is a "forever solution" for a "now problem".

What sort of therapy have you done? Have you ever been able to work with a therapist you thought was really helpful? And do you have a proper psychiatrist managing your medications? It might be that usually, just an antidepressant is fine for you but right now with this bad spell you need a second type of medication to "boost" it.

Just keep taking one moment at a time, one hour at a time. Try to do little things you can enjoy or help you feel more normal. If desire to hurt yourself is too strong, then you tell someone right away and stay under your blankets until the feeling passes or you have someone with you to help you be safe!!

[summervale789]

Hi , health unlocked sent me an email about your situation. I've been taking effexor about nine yrs. Used to take paxil which I thought worked better. Effexor doesn't help to the degree I thought it would. Please don't give up hope, there are many antidepressants out there one would be right for you. Unfortunately, it can be a slow process of trial and error. Also there are many therapists. Maybe the last one wasn't the right fit. Hang in and take care of you ❤️ contact me if you need to talk.