I Just Want To Be Happy

[OllyBlue]

I've struggled with depression my whole life... I just didn't know that's what it was called until further down the road. I've always been shocked at the love & joy I see other people experience. Lovely families with plenty of food & carefree children just living in the moment, playing in the sun of their beautiful life... I want to know what that's like

After barely escaping my youth, I was injured at work, was bedridden for 5yrs, then regained mobility after an extensive surgery. Everything got much worse because of that.

Now I'm married to a man who loves me very much, but they are struggling with anger issues, & have been their entire life with no plan to quel said problem.

I'm at the point where I don't know what to do. Meds don't work (or I haven't found the right ones), meds have horrible side-effects, exercize is challenging (physical limitations & pain), I have 2 people that are my support system & one is my angry husband that just makes everything worse.

I'm starting therapy again this week & I'm hoping it helps. I joined this site to hopefully uplift others & be uplifted myself. 💙🙌

There, now you all know me better than most people that I've ever met. lol

I wish everyone the best! I do hope you're on the path to happiness & freedom.

We all want to be happy, after all. 💙

#MDD #surgery #chronicpain #ptsd #ocd #strugglingmarriage #depressiontreatment #trauma #abuse #fightingformylife

[Gramas]

Sorry to hear all you’ve gone through. Just goes to show how resilient you are. Being bedridden for 5 years had to be really tough. But you had the strength to get through it. I give you a lot of credit for that as I don’t know if I could do it even if I had to.

I seem to have the same problem with medications as they just don’t seem to work or cause terrible side effects. I continue to take them however as I would be scared to stop.

I’m sorry about the problems you are having with your husband, it would be hard to deal with that. Does he not recognize his problems or is he just resistant to getting help?

I admire your attitude as it seems to be a very positive one. Its important to feel that way especially when struggling with depression. I hope all goes well for you.