Major life disruption

[BananaNana69]

I am so sad. I could barely move today. My granddaughter coming to stay the night got me up. I am sluggish, sad and wondering if it’s worth it to carry on.

Lots of reasons for this but I truly need support atm.

What do you do when what you thought was your life if ripped apart?

I am insecure about my future, my finances and my identity.

Kids and grandchildren I helped raise are taking sides.

They will try to normalize something that can’t be normalized.

I am down the rabbit hole.

[Beavis2022]

Hi, I'm truly sorry for what you are going through. I'm exactly your age and have exactly your "brand" of depression. Are your kids/grandchildren able to help you if there is a financial difficulty? When I get this bad, it helps to keep moving, whether inside or out; maybe accomplish little things in the home. I used to just lie in bed all day, but that's a bad idea - just magnifies the worry and depression. I don't know what the exact problems you have - not trying to be nosy, but helpful. I find getting and looking older are very hard to adjust to. It just worsens the depression. This is a terrible time to have family problems or major changes in your way of living. I did, and I just wanted to plan my death every day, A person needs to feel loved, secure, and accepted for who they are.

[BananaNana69 in reply to Beavis2022]

Thanks for replying.

I am currently but precariously in an okay financial situation. My daughter just meets ends and I actually help out sometimes.

My future will depend on what my ex tries to take from me. We had a separation agreement, but I don’t know him anymore.

It does sound like you’ve been or are there. I am also sorry for what you’ve experienced too. It is the worst time to be going through this.

I have been a lot less productive than I was, my creative energy had shriveled to a dying ember.

I am fortunate to currently have good health insurance (that may change) and weekly phone therapy but right now it’s not enough.

Yes, humans do better in a supportive community, to feel valued and love for who they are.

Thanks again.